I was not born into this world to sit in a tiny cube all day

This is not what I had in mind. I always thought that the “working gene” would eventually shine through and I would all of a sudden love working or something. It hasn’t happened. At all. Working sucks. I have a drive to be successful I just think I’m scared of failing or not being what I thought I would and could be.

Or I could just be lazy.

I’m walking a super thin line at work right now. I’ve had “chats” with my boss, as well as my boss’s boss. NOT GOOD CHATS PEOPLE. These “chats” consisted basically of ” start fucking working and getting here on time or…”  UGHH. The only good thing going for me right now (very good thing) is my boss’s boss is really my dad. So I figure I’m safe. But I’m really not. How humiliating would THAT be? Get fired from your daddy’s company.  That Burn is gonna leave a scar. I’d fall into a deep depression, as well as deep into debt.

Which makes me wonder what the Fuck I’m doing with my life?!? Am I really just waiting for some rich, smart, funny and gorgeous man to fall in love with me? I mean I’m not the kinda girl to rely on a guy, I can take care of myself! I just don’t really want to sometimes. There are just not enough hours in the day to get everything done. Especially now that it gets dark at like 5 PM. Ridic.

Ok 10 helpful tips so you people don’t get into my situation… ahem…

1. Don’t move cross country to move in with your boyfriend, especially when he’s still in school. You WILL end up paying for almost everything and will leave (leave=out of the blue breakup) 6 months later  wiser… yes, but also very much in debt.

2. Don’t stay out/up till 3 and 4 in the morning. It makes it hard (aka impossible) to get up and be at work by 9 AM. If you do make it to work you will be a useless pile of sleepy.

3. Don’t dream dreams that you have no intention of following (like being an actress, singer, other super talented rich career path, doctor, etc.)  It will only make your current life seem not good enough and you will always just be waiting for that something that may never happen b/c you didn’t go for it.

4. GO FOR IT!

5. GO FOR IT WHILE YOUR PARENTS WILL STILL PAY FOR IT!!! (<<VERY IMPORTANT)

6. Don’t do drugs. Seriously, they are so freagin stupid. They will only kill you. Trust me, I’ve had friends die from them and I’ve never ever had a friend become a better person b/c of them. Ever. (this does not mean I did drugs at all, it means Ive seen what they do to people)

7. Work hard, and get used to it. I grew up without having to have a job. So when I did have to get a job it was a huge huge reality shock. I had no idea what I was getting into. I mean sure, in college I was a waitress. I thought I was really working but honestly, I ran that place. If I didn’t wanna work, I didn’t work. And when I did, I made bank. Work didn’t start till 4 PM. It was so much fun. The real world is not like this, and I don’t like it.

8. Don’t move back home (with your parents) after college. Just don’t do it. I cannot stress this enough. You think it’s a good idea b/c you’re saving money yaaay for saving money. NO. It will slowly kill you and strip you of your independence.

9. Don’t act like a silly little girl at work or in front of your boss. Because he/she will really think you’re stupid. and how does that help your career?

10. You’re only young once, so do whatever the Fuck you want to. If you don’t… you will probably regret not doing it. These are the lessons you learn (plus some others not listed) and everyone’s gotta learn them on their own. Just don’t fuck up too bad.

Ok it is so time to get out of here. One more thing…

SATURDAY 3:30 PM — ALABAMA @ LSU — This Game is HUGE! GEAUX TIGERS!

Friday Already!?

Friday. geez the weeks go fast. I have literally done NOTHING all week ( except shop online), And it’s not even my fault. I haven’t been given anything to do its ridiculous. The funny part is that today I actually do have work to do finally and now i decide to write on my blog. Im so good at balancing activities.

Monday I said this was gonna be a helpful blog and maybe sometimes it will be, but maybe people can just learn from my mistakes. thats helpful right? Today I could actually use some advice or sympathy. either one works. I’ve had the same best friend since 9th grade. she recently moved back to VA too and we were all excited to be living in the same place again (or so i thought). Basically whenever I’m not around (so ive heard) she talks mad shit about me to our other friends. first of all, WTF!? second of all, what should I do? I feel a Huuuuuge drunk bitch fight coming on (maybe tonight, uh oh) and honestly im big on love and peace (not in a hippie way, just in a chill out kinda way) and she’s more uptight and i really dont wanna fight with her. But Im sick of hearing that my best friend says stuff about me thats so bad to other people that they feel the need to tell me that my best friend is a bitch. and they dont even tell me what she says… so ya know its bad. but i honestly cant figure out what the fuck she would say about me that people dont already know. I would get sick of hearing someone talk bad about someone else, esp their bff.

anyways, im supposed to go out with her tonight… so we shall see.

ughhh yesterday I went to kickboxing class with a friend and I am SO sore. It feels SO good. We’re trying to get in shape in a week b/c we’re going to the Keys for Labor Day weekend. Im so excited! i dunno if we’re gonna actually get in shape in a week but maybe a littttle toned. couldnt hurt anyways. The instructor was seriously a Billy Blanks wannabe. he was a seriously buff black man wearing all black spandex and he would smack your stomach and tell you to tighten up and like basically lift your legs higher if you wernt kicking high enough or hard enough. he was awesome. I havent worked out in months AND i smoke (really need to quit) but i was dying, it felt amazing.

So I guess I should get some work done… it’s noon.. i guess i could go to lunch haha. nah probably wont. I get to work and then i eat breakfast so its basically like an early lunch. saves money too! there thats a helpful tip, haha.

oh yeah I just got caught not working at all by my boss. That’s great. go me. blog time over.

happy friday people!!